The curse of rebuilding

Okay, here I am rewriting my website for the 5th time. There’s almost no content (yeah, I am pretty strict with not writing too much and then deleting the content I feel is outdated. 🤦🏼‍♂️) — but anyway, the page gets a fresh coat of paint and all.

So I ask myself, why is that?

High bar meets low bar

I look at my page and think it’s good, and a couple of days later I doubt it. “Ah … it’s not good enough. I need to change that.” or “I should change the color theme, I don’t think that’s modern anymore” are just some of the thoughts constantly going through my head.

That really sucks. Having a high bar for quality, but a low bar for how embarrassed you are about what you put out is not a good combo. It makes you doubt every move and step.

The curse of learning

I also love to try out new things and learn. I like to get good at what I am doing, and have the need to constantly improve. Eventually it’s something that allowed me to make some decent moves in my career and work with some well-known big companies. 💪🏼

But it also leads me to the point of building some things for the sake of building, because the exploration, the learning, the need for something new is a strong driver.

Personal vs Professional

I realize I have two very different modi operandi here. Personally, this is where I struggle, as you can see and read here. Professionally, I am really good at prioritizing, scoping, and focusing on deliverable value. I guess it always comes down to seeing what’s at stake.